Summer is over. And we have had a wonderful summer. We are almost through our 100 item bucket list. The cold and the rain almost makes it okay that we go back tomorrow. The Sunday before the start of a new school year has always been a cause of high anxiety for me. Even after teaching 13 years, I still feel nervous! This year, I going to work only part-time, and I have mixed emotions. Still the nerves and butterflies of the first days heading back, but also a little bit of glee. The glee is mixed with some fear, but the glee is there. The giddy feeling that I only have to work half of a day inside cement walls with fluorescent lighting, Only four, instead of eight hours of negative energy, and complaining.*
Blowing bubbles. Bucket List item number 87.
I’m excited to take this next step in my life. I can’t wait to leave school, and go teach or practice yoga. I’m excited to share yoga at my children’s school, and eat lunch with them. I’m excited to have time to read, cook healthy dinners, and walk my puppy. (I am hoping less stress means more healing with my UC. This has been a rough summer. I just play it off really well. I’m back up to the highest dosage of 6 pills a day and my symptoms are getting worse. I am buying time, hoping I get better everyday. I don’t want to be on steroids, I don’t want to have yet another colonoscopy, and I don’t want my colon removed. I’m just scared.)
But back to that glee. Right now the glee is taking over the underlying fear. My fear, of course is money. I was at the bank the other day and the lady in front of me was trying to do some type of transaction. When the teller wasn’t sure if they could do it, she started crying. Of course, I start crying too. Seriously. Tears were streaming down my face. My 10-year-old daughter was with me and asks me why I am crying. Because I have been there. In the exact same bank, exact same feeling. I have been at the bank crying when a check didn’t go through in time. I know that terrifying feeling that you might not make your mortgage. I have cried when bills had to be paid late of at all, and I wondered if we might not make it to the next payday. Money is a huge cause of stress for all of us. And no amount of downward dogs or pranayama can change that.
I was hoping to add a few more classes to my teaching schedule. That didn’t work out too well. So I just need to be proactive. There are other gym/studios in Charlotte, I can teach private lessons, or even do some home school physical education. I was at the Fresh Market yesterday, and I wouldn’t mind working there. Seriously. It was so peaceful in there. And maybe I could get free seafood salad.
Good Luck to all the teachers this school year! You all have a special place in heaven.
Have you ever seen a happier 6-year-old?
*Disclaimer: Not everyone I work with has negative energy and complains. Most of my coworkers are wonderful and some of my best friends. Teachers are just over worked and underpaid. It is hard not to complain!
Cheat Meal- Sweet Frogs! Toasted Marshmallow fro yo with hot fudge, white chocolate chips, and hot pink sprinkles!
Over this break from school, I tried to sub as many yoga classes as possible, and even auditioned at another studio. (and nailed it…yay!) I wanted to see if I could do it physically and how I would feel at the end of the day.
I hung out with my kids, practiced a bunch of yoga, saw a movie, went out to lunch, candy crushed it up, tried some new recipes for dinner, and went out to lunch a few times. I had time and energy for these things. And…
It was heaven.
Is this what my life could be like? Feeling dehydrated from teaching 4 classes a day at a hot studio, but loving that exhausted-who cares how tired I am-I love this feeling? I felt happy all week. I was surrounded by positive energy, and my heart felt all glowy. You know that feeling? Some people call it bliss.
As I waiver back and forth on my decision, I lean more toward feeling happy and light. I lean more toward feeling appreciated and wanted. I lean more toward feeling bliss from inside than bliss from the money I would make if I stayed.
I choose me. *
*If anyone knows how I can get some cheap health insurance, holla at me.
*And if anyone know how to convince a boss to pay for their employee’s (and possibly his kids) health insurance, that wife could possibly get free yoga at a really awesome studio and/or private lessons. You know who you are.
BB Creams are amazing. Once you hit your 30’s you start to wish you would have listen more about wearing sunscreen. Wrinkles, uneven skin tone, dark circles, and other things start to pop up. Problem solved.
Depending on the BB Cream you use, the product can work as a moisturizer, serum, toner, primer, concealer, foundation, eye cream and/or highlighter. Not only are they time-savers, but they’re money-savers too. I have tried many of these…I have a favorite cheap brand and a favorite expensive brand.
Garnier Skin Renew: This BB cream is the best of the drug store brands. It will run you about $8, for 2.5 ounces and has a SPF of 15. It is lightweight so it doesn’t feel heavy like some creams do. (I buy this when I have a “poor” month)
Smashbox Camera Ready: This BB cream is absolutely the best. It feels velvety, looks amazing, and has a SPF of 35. You don’t need anything else on your fac. It runs about $45 for a 1.0 ounce bottle. You only need a pea size amount (unless you have a giant face…neigh), so it will last. I have considered not buying groceries for my family in exchange for this wonderfulness. I said considered.
I broke a bottle of pink nail polish in a bag with the BB cream on the right. Don’t expect your Garnier to look like this at Walgreens.
I wondered what made the Smashbox so much better. I did a little research. meaning I looked at the ingredients and googled them. Smashbox has 7.5% octinoxate, while the Garnier only has 4%. (octinoxate is sunscreen so that makes sense) The Smashbox also has Octisalate, and oxybenzone. (more sunscreen and sunscreen) They both have titanium dioxide…Smashbox has less. Don’t even google titanium dioxide. yikes.
I guess you could just put on 3 organic sunscreen types and mix a little dirt for the color and you have you some vegan BB cream. (I’d like to see Justin Timberlake do that one)
I like meat, titanium chips, and not having to make stuff though.