Last weekend my husband and I joined my parents for a trip to Kansas City. We went to see my cousin get married and had the absolute best time. My husband and I have not been away without the kids in a year…since the last wedding we went to in Flat Rock! I forget how fun
I am my husband is to travel with. See how happy he looks to be in the picture with Neptune! (I realize it can be annoying to travel with someone who always wants to take pictures.) This weekend was really perfect timing after a very stressful week. I needed to get away and process.
Re-reading on the plane. For the Love by my absolute woman crush of the century, Jen Hatmaker. In case you missed it, I am on the Launch Team for this book. It is the best book she has written so far. There are so many parts that speak straight into my heart, and I cry. Then she writes something in the next sentence that has me cracking up. If you haven’t ordered this book…do it now. It comes out in August, but you can pre-order. Jen gave us permission to post a couple teasers…so stay tuned for those next week. She is in our private Facebook group and we are friends. Not like before where I was stalking her. We are actual friends and SHE READ MY BLOG YA’LL. In her words, “I can’t even.”
We got to Kansas City early enough on Friday to have lunch and look around in the plaza area. Legend says, if you rub this warthog’s snot, good luck and fortune will come your way. I’m into being lucky and rich, so I basically made out with the statue.
We couldn’t check in to our hotel until 3, but they were nice enough to store our bags and my hubby and I got in the hot tub and had an actual conversation. I forgot I like him.
After we checked in, we rested up a bit, and met in the hotel bar for a glass of champagne and a selfie.
This area of Kansas City is gorgeous! So much fun shopping, restraunts, and so many parks. The reshearsal dinner was at Loose Park. We ate bbq (a must in KC), told sotries and walked around and admired what was in bloom. I love my family so much and being with them this weekend filled my cup.
We slept in until 8:00am on Saturday…a treat since both of us are usually up by 5:30 daily. We heard about this great burger place and wanted to go for lunch. But first, a workout. I put myself and my hubby through a Carolina Sweat type workout. Complete with sprint intervals on the treadmill. We were killing it ya’ll. The other people in the gym probably thought we were fitness trainers or fitness models or something. (But for reals…I view exercise as my anti-depressant. I have been on actual pills before and they were needed at different times in my life. I wasn’t crazy about the side effects, so I use exercise instead. It works for me right now, so I am sticking with it.)
After our workout, I practiced my handstands because that is what good yogis do. 🙂
We walked (uphill!) to Winstead’s to eat steak burgers and onion rings.
But the walk, and even the killer workout were probably not enough to combat this lunch. (not pictured: the ice cream cone we split.) I made sure to dance all this off at the reception. I love music and dancing and at a point in this life that I don’t care what I look like or who I am dancing with. At one point I was trying to drag my husband on the dance floor to jam out with me. He said: BUT YOU ARE JUST JUMPING!?!? (He probably meant I looked like Beyoncé. He doesn’t have the best way with words.)
The wedding was so loving and gentle. My uncle performed the ceremony and it really brought us back, because he performed our wedding over 13 years ago. My husband and I always renew our vows at weddings, but this felt really special.
And back home on Sunday. As we got off the plane, I said to my husband, “Back to the real world.” And immediately after I said, “Good thing I love my real world.” If I would have had to go back to school on Monday, I would have not gotten off the plane.
Last week I briefly considered going back to teaching school. Like, for real. I searched jobs on the internet. I know. I lost a few classes at a studio and took it really hard. My feelings were hurt, my ego was bruised and it sucked. It was not personal, but it is hard to not take it a little personally. I also freaked out about how I was going to make it financially. After my meltdown was over, we had a family meeting and all decided that I actually have a lot of options. My daughter snuck this note in my suitcase for me to find when I was unpacking.
I am at a better place with it now. Sometimes God just needs to create space for amazing things to happen. Sometimes situations come up almost like a test. I am using this as an opportunity to grow and get better. I don’t want to be a person who freaks out. I don’t want to be a person who worries. I want to spread my wings and rise up like a glorious Phoenix. I want to feel worthy, loved and at peace. I found this affirmation that I love and has really stuck with me.
“I will behave today like the person I wish to become. The way to achieve my dreams is by living them now. I release the fears and habits that have been holding me back.”
Powerful words. You say them out loud. Right now.